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Chaotic Cycles
04:01
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I keep spinning and spinning
Circling down this pit of despair
What have I done to bring this pain upon myself The light always gets darker at the end of the tunnel I have everything to fear
What has brought me back here
I've lost myself
I look around and all I seem to see is absence of solace and comfort What has brought us back here
Surrounded by everything we fear
Life's looking like there is no way out
It all seems so bleak
I can't continue this false image that I am that weak
I'm my own lost idol
Trapped inside this Chaotic Cycle
I keep spinning and spinning
Circling down this pit of despair
What have I done to bring this pain upon myself The light always gets darker at the end of the tunnel I have everything to fear
What has brought me back here
I've found myself
I'm my own lost idol
Trapped inside this Chaotic Cycle
(Spinning and spinning...)
I am so fucked trying to be this worlds crutch
We're all so fucked trying to be this worlds crutch No, no, no, no
We're all so fucked so just let me rot We're all so fucked just let me rot Just let me rot
We're so fucked
Just let me rot Just let me rot
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Stay quiet
Stay calm
Can't let them know what's going on in my thoughts Blood hits the ground, I try to ignore it
It's not your problem but you know it's over dumb shit It's not your problem but you know it's over dumb shit
I'm trying to become a changed man
Can't let the streets tell me who I am
This family is falling apart
This neighborhood has become a part of my heart
So much love in all the wrong places
Just trying to survive as the weather changes Stay in my lane and focus on the children
Put food on the table, make sure no one kills them
Can't let them know what's going on in my brain Crying every night just to release the pain
No one really cares about what happens here My mind's overwhelmed by possibilities
At the end of the day we're just scum I never knew i'd turn out to be scum I'm cursed, i'm cursed, i'm cursed
I'll never find my worth
I'm cursed, i'm cursed, i'm cursed Trapped inside this worthless planet Earth I'm cursed, i'm cursed in this planet Earth
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Notches
04:07
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Lost in black
Fade to grey
Doesn't matter 'cause we all die the same way
I'm not saying I condone it
Some of my friends got bodies on 'em, I say fuck it
I'm against the violence, I don't get it
But what would you do?
What the fuck would you do if you grew up in this fucking mess?
Everyday's a fight for survival
Lost in black
Fade to grey
Doesn't matter 'cause we all die the same way
I'm not saying I condone it
Some of my friends got bodies on 'em, I say fuck it
I'm against the violence, I don't get it
But what would you do?
What the fuck would you do if you grew up in this fucking mess?
I'm getting sick and tired of all these shots And getting tired of all these shitty blocks
Why don't you fuck off and let us find our own way Had enough wondering if it is my last day
I never understood 12 getting in my fucking way
And I may be lost
Again I may be failing in my sin Cut me away
I'm drowning in this array
I'm just drowning in this array
I don't condone this shit All of this makes me sick
The last thing I need is you all judging me
I'm not defined by the company I keep Crawling, scratching, and climbing my way out By any means necessary
Don't talk shit about what you know nothing about (You don't know shit, you don't know shit)
Don't talk shit about what you know nothing about (You don't know shit, you don't know)
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Notorious
02:04
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I thought you were once a brother to me
We shouldered your weight
Why can’t you see I’m tired of you thinking you’re on top But you can only get so high
Until you drop off
Until you drop off
Take the stage, it’s all for you
You must be desperate to be in people’s view Claiming to be as deep as the ocean
But only as shallow as it’s shores
If you only understood
How this all comes together
People’s feelings change Just like the weather
People’s feelings change Just like the weather
Take the stage, it’s all for you
You must be desperate to be in people’s view Claiming to be as deep as the ocean
But only as shallow as it’s shores
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Split
02:18
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Like splitting hairs life takes it's toll
Constantly thinking back to the innocence you stole
Now i'm left only with this A borken moral compass A life full of grey areas
No right, no wrong
I've come to yet another branching path But once I choose
There's no going back
I can't help someone if I can't help myself
If I don't know whats right for me then God help someone else Then God help someone else
Do I take the high road or do I sink further And crawl back to old habits?
Until my neck meets the rope
Until my neck meets the
Rope
Torn in between what's right and what's wrong
Cracking under the pressure I forgot to be strong
Cracking under the pressure
I forgot what it is to be strong Blood is thicker than water But you can still drown in both You can still drown
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Dissonance
04:14
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I regret all of my ways
And I regret choosing the gutter
I come from blood impure
Brick feet with tainted affiliation
I tried to run from what I thought would hurt me
But ended up hurting myself But ended up hurting myself
Choices made for my life at a different time before I truly lived I pushed too hard to be accepted
Now I will die alone
This tortured soul trapped in my pathetic skin
I guess I'm really broken but how would I know
I'm always self medicating, trying to blur the memories of defeat In this moment of rare clarity i'll scream to the world
That i'm not proud of nothing i've done
I don't know myself
I don't know myself
Choices made for my life at a different time before I truly lived I pushed too hard to be accepted
Now I will die alone
This tortured soul trapped in my pathetic skin
I guess I'm really broken but how would I know
I'm always self medicating, trying to blur the memories of defeat In this moment of rare clarity i'll scream to the world
That i'm not proud of nothing i've done
I don't know myself
I don't know myself
Leave me alone
I'll only drag you down to my own personal Hell
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Episodes
03:21
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I've lost everything I have Everything I was
I've lost everything I have Everything I was Everything I will be
Depression pressed in concrete Emotions crushed under the weight
My soul peeled away to reveal the parasite My soul is peeled away to reveal my own self
Depression pressed in concrete Emotions crushed under the weight
I'm not a martyr i'm a shell of a broken man Defeated, defeated
A failure of my destiny
My innocence has been drawn and quartered My grave is not of this Earth
I'm searching for something Between all the silence Reading between the lines Of all of this violence
All of this violence All of this violence
I've lost everything I have Everything I was Everything I will be
We're made to believe that there's one path for all men They say it's how the world turns but its all bullshit
It's just a front for selfishness
Maybe i'm not the problem
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Can't Be Fixed
02:51
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Yes i'm broken and I think I can't be fixed Spilling out my heart from behind this pulpit
Maybe it's only a matter of time until I finally catch my own nine Praying and begging God to let me grow old
Maybe one day i'll be a man who can stay gold
I've been running on empty since my birth
Maybe it's only a matter of time until I finally catch my own nine Praying and begging God to let me grow old
Maybe one day i'll be a man who can stay gold
Hopefully these worlds will set me free Only then will my family truly know me
Maybe it's only a matter of time until I finally catch my own nine Praying and begging God to let me grow old
Maybe one day i'll be a man who can stay gold
Music is my only therapy
My best friends are the only ones that know me
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Up and left in the night just like the air in my lungs For years i've been waiting for this song to be sung
I guess your true love was forever in drugs Leaving the family you once said that you loved
Fuck you, fuck you
Never once spoke the truth Fuck you, fuck you
Never once spoke the truth Fuck you, fuck you
You never spoke the truth It was always about you
It was always about you
The perfect example of what I hate
I will never be like you, I will never be like you
Until this Earth turns me to dust Forever forgotten, forever untouched
I see your fate
You will never be enough This is the end of you This is the end of us
Breaking free for you was never an option Your addiction made you solely obnoxious Back in the day I was never any better
But now I've grown, ill be healing here forever
I won't say that I stand by all the fucked up minds But it's reality that stays in our fucked up lives
Mankind is a plague, and that's making it vague
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